I think I'm a glass half full kind of person. There's always something to be thankful for when you've got a family like mine. This Thanksgiving weekend, probably the worst to date in my world, was also the best one too. (Glass half full... I'm really trying here people.) My dad was in a serious motorcycle accident, but he is alive...thank God. Those Sooners beat the Cowboys, but it was close up until the last couple of minutes (and they mostly got lucky until the very end. : ) I won't lie though. There were moments when my dad's accident happened that I was really angry. Mad at my dad, mad at the guy who hit him, and mad at the nurses who seemed to be inoculated to motorcycle accidents... like it serves them right or something. The blood would boil or I would feel apathetic about my world and dreams when my dad is sitting in a hospital bed like he is. But, then I started writing a song. No, dad, it's not "your song" yet but you are going to like it.
Sometimes my dreams seem trivial (no, I'm not saving a man's life as a doctor or shaping kids as a teacher) but it's something. I write. I sing. I do it because I listened to all those records growing up that always made me and my dad feel so good especially after a heartbreak or bad day. What has my dad been doing in the hospital the last few days that brings him comfort... listening to his favorite artists. He's got his headphones in his ears to drown out the noise of the hospital and I know it helps.
When I got my first leading role as Cinderella in Into the Woods in eighth grade it lit a fire inside me that has lasted this long because of one moment. There was a scene where I had to fall several times, the last time I fell, I broke that third wall and engaged the audience with my last line. I saw the faces in the front row erupt with laughter and I thought: "wow, I just did that. I made them really happy for a little while."
Call me a people pleaser, but I don't think anyone can deny how good it feels to make someone smile or give them comfort. Though doubt can creep into anyone's life, I have found that if you focus on the good, even the smallest things can turn into great blessings. When your cup is half full it more easily runs over.
KM
